Jeremiah

The Lord says: "My plans for you are peace not disaster, when you call to me, I will listen to you, and I will bring you back to the place from which I exciled you." Jeremiah 29:11

This verse at mass on Sept. 15th made me feel that God is directing my move and bringing me back to Philadelphia. Why oh why can I not retain joy in the belief of His plan for me. Sometimes I think my brain is too easily captured by the devil, who brings me down with fear and torments of "what if" disasters. Shame on me - I hate that. Bring on the JOY!

Inspection today

Thank you Lord and Saint Joseph we have a contract. Please stay with me and help us through closing with faith in your mercy and love and always with confidence that I am following your plan. Banish doubts, stress, and anxiety from my heart and mind and soul. Let me be peaceful in your arms. Forgive my tepid faith - make it strong every day and every hour. I love you, Jesus. Blessed Mary and Joseph help and intercede for me.

House selling stress!

Lord I can't deal with this. You are going to have to handle it. I'm putting it in your hands and I know you will take care of me.

Anxiety

The new York Times has an article on anxiety. One way to handle it is to keep a journal. I awoke today at 3 a.m. and I know it is because I have a lot of anxiety about selling the house. There has only been one couple who has looked at it - they were here for a second visit yesterday evening and that is a good sign. Still I think if they don't make an off I worry, worry, worry, that I could be stuck here. A friend sent me an email about living today - I try to remember to enjoy the dance of life and most of all to trust that I am in God's hands and He is watching over me. Life is not meant to be an anxiety trip. It is so sad that I continue to do so. Simplifying my life, I think will be a healthy solution for me. I do not need to own a house - when this one sells it would be best for me to be an apartment dweller. I am taking a needlepoint lesson tomorrow - I want something to do with my hands that will keep me absorbed and my mind free of those dreaded anxiety thoughts.